The Details

This quiet, confident voice reassured me, "I will work out the details."

When God places a burden on your heart, it can be challenging to walk the line of walking in faith and doing the necessary footwork.

I had the faith part down pretty well...until my feet (and hands and mind) started working.

I poured over the web reading everything I could about adoption, contacting agencies, and requesting information packets. God had not given me details! How was I going to figure this all out?

How would I find her? This wasn't just about adopting a child, it was about finding Joy. She was somewhere in this big world, and the more I read, the bigger this world became.

In the millions of orphans, how will we ever find our little girl.

Domestic adoption or international adoption?

Ethiopia or China or Kazakhstan or Ukraine or Nepal or Bulgaria or Korea or Taiwan?

Which agency?

Tim must have noticed the pained look on my face.

"What are you worried about?" he asked as I looked through all the agency packets on my lap.

"What if we choose the wrong country? What if we choose an agency and that is not the agency that has her in their listing? What if we make the wrong choice?" I could feel the release as I spoke the words and my eyes filled with tears.

"Then He will send her to our agency," my husband matter-of-factly stated to me in a voice filled with confidence that God would see this through.

The answer was so simple. Yet I could not see it because I had become overwhelmed with thinking I had to figure this all out. I had forgotten in whose hands Joy's life rested. It was not up to me. It was not our agency who was going to place her with us. It was our God.

My husband's simple words reminded me what God had been telling me all along. God would work out the details.